Thoughts

Sometimes being alone with your thoughts is a good thing and well sometimes not.  I have lots of time to think when I'm alone. I was thinking of all the things I have done in my life. Whether good or bad they have always ended up having a purpose that mean't something to me. I've been trying lately to think in terms of moving on and so far, I think anyway, I have done pretty good. Is  it crazy to say I'm proud of myself for being able to pick myself up and move forward, I don't think so really. I have managed to move forward and keep my kids happy in the process.  To me they are my world right now and always will be. I have always tried to do what's best for them, even when what I was doing probably wasn't the best. I have learned from my mistakes and hopefully have passed onto them how to make their way in life.
Then there are times when I feel very insecure with myself. I second guess myself and think maybe I could have done things differently. I tend to worry about things that probably I shouldn't and then also make more out of things that need to be.  Do you ever over think things?  I do a lot and this is one thing I need to stop. I will look at a situation and think maybe something is wrong when its really fine. These are times when I'm  alone with my thoughts that maybe I shouldn't be.
So enough with that for today. Things in my life are going so well right now and I will go with that :)


Take each day as it comes and no matter what happens make the most of it. There is good in everything....

If there is one thing that has got me through things in my life its music.  I do believe music means different things to different people. To me certain songs always remind me of different things in my life. I'm always looking for new songs. I heard this song for the first time a few days ago. I love it, its meaning is so true when you think about it.  "What Doesn't Kill You Makes You Stronger"   There is only one thing to do in life, keep getting stronger and don't let anyone get you down. If something happens, pick yourself up, dust yourself off and move on. It's tough to do but go for it. The only thing that can happen is that you might be happy.

Let's Start Something Else New

Sooooo.....Where to start. I've wanted to do this for some time and well finally sitting down to do it.  Last July I made a drastic change in my life. After over 30 years of marriage, I left. Not a decision that came lightly to me, I went through a lot of things in my mind before I decided it was time for it to end.
     You know when you hear people say "I stayed for the kids",  I always thought that was a crazy reason to stay and thought many times when I heard people say that, you can't be serious but after everything I have gone through I have come to realize that I was one of those people that stayed because of the kids.  Never, never a good reason.  When things finally started to totally unravel in my mind, my kids were the first to say we would be happier away from all of it.  So like I said after much thought, I did take the steps to leave.
    It's a scary situation when you really have never been alone before. I went from being in my parents home to being married by the time I was 19, having my first child shortly after I turned 20.  Today though through all the years that I have lived I can safely say this has been one of the best choices I have made in my life. I'm learning to like myself again, to see that there is more to life then just living day to day waiting for the next one to come along, basically learning to make life what it was mean't to be, FUN AND ENJOYABLE.
    It took some time, being in a small town  places to live are hard to find, but just before Christmas we finally found a place, which I gladly call mine and my kids home.  We got settled very quickly and the holidays were the best I have had in a long time. Fun and family. Isn't that the way holidays were mean't to be?  Another thing I found out, yes they are. Relaxing, calm and lots of laughter.
    So with this new  year that has just started, its kind of finally my new beginning.....

So as I see it, its time to do things my way......So as the name of my blog states      "Never Let Life Pass You By"